Sorry I haven't been here for so long...over a month now.  Well, most of life can be described in a few words in the past month...stressful, painful and FUN. A odd combination but all true. Who doesn't have stress in their life, so that shouldn't be a shocker. Painful comes to play because last week I found out that I had a severe bladder infection...and if I would have waited another day or two, the Doc said it would have turned into a kidney infection...so good thing I went in. I am now on antibodics that make me loopy...I have never done any sort of drugs (illegal) so I am guessing maybe this is what people feel like. But at least I feel better...

As for FUN...there is so much to say. Mark and I went to the cities which you can read about at his blog...mclii. He writes much better than I PLUS much more detailed so I will leave it up to you to see all of our adventures on his blog. BUT my coolest moment thus far this past month was going to the Beastie Boys concert. It was awesome. The best show I have ever seen. It was well worth being pushed and shoved on the floor! I was about 5 rows back from the stage. Adrock, MCA and Mike D were so close I could see sweat on them....it was unreal. My roommate was almost in the front row. She is a veteran in getting into the crowd, so she pushed her way up. It was the strangest mixture of people. Young-Old, Pregant-Not Pregnant, Preppies-Not Preppies, etc. But everyone was there for one reason, to FINALLY get to see them in concert. It had been over 15 years since they were in Madison. Hopefully we won't have to wait another 15. It will be a memory that will last forever!

Thank you to everyone for their kind words from my last blog. Friday was the day and everything went as planned. The procedure took about 20 minutes and I found out my results right away. All is well but I did find out that I have a very low pain threshhold. Have you ever heard of the how bad does it hurt scale? 1 being not bad at all 10 being the worst pain ever....This was an 11!! I can't believe they said I could go back to work after it...yeah right! My hubby drove me home afterwards. Every bump felt like someone jabbing a serrated knife into my lower stomach. I spent most of the morning in bed popping motrin like they were orange tic tacs. I eventually made my way out to the couch and stayed there most of the day and night. I had great support from my hubby and roommate. Sleeping was a little difficult on Friday night but I eventually faded into dream land.  Overall,  an OK experience.

Today we had an all day staff meeting...the first part was boring the second part quite interesting. We had a memory retention guy come in and teach us on how to strength our memory. I can give you one quick tip...if you get introduced to someone and are in fear you are not going to remember their name, associate that name to a visual object that is pronounced phonetically the same. Example if meet a person with the name Dennis, the object that comes to my mind is Tennis Raquet. I picture this man with a tennis racquet that is around his neck. It really does work! This seminar was wonderful!! I have some great ideas professionally and personally.

Happy Thoughts!

On Friday, I will be having out patient procedure done. Due to privacy, I choose not to say what is going on, but I am extremely stressed. I thought planning the wedding was stressful but this tops the cake. So many things hang in the balance with this procedure. Some doors may never open which scares the hell out of me.  I  can't even describe the feelings I am having. I wish every night everything will be OK, but....who knows. All I know is I hope that it isn't painful....
Sorry for the somber blog...it is just so close....too many emotions to type.

Happy Thoughts

So I am not going into the whole long painful story of my "bridesmaid from hell" but once you read the below, maybe I will feel better and you bloggers will understand the rant a little more.

So this "friend/bridesmaid" was a friend from college. She started out a foe but soon turned into a treasured person in my life. Once hubby and I got engaged things started to drastically changed. Now, once you leave college of course some friendships fall to the wayside but not this one. It seemed to get stronger the further geographically we were apart, the closer our friendship became. However the closer the wedding got the stranger things got. She wasn't getting into the wedding stuff, she barely talked to me, she just in the knick of time got her bridesmaid dress fitted and OH decided at the church of all places, to say she would love to "get with" (those are the nice words, I choose not to say the real ones) my future brother in law and then when she found out who my brother was, started to try to hit on him. All inappropriate, but things I could semi deal with. OH< and we can't forget this, right  before I walked down the aisle, she said "are you sure you want to marry him?" WHO ASKS THAT 30 seconds before you are about to get married??  AND then the kicker came...right in the middle of the reception she tries to pick a fight with me...me!!! The Bride! She said that I wasn't talking to her and that I was ignoring her...needless to say, there were about 150 people I needed to talk with...get over it. So, like a freaked out bride, I sent her packing for the night. I told her if she wasn't happy at the reception, then just leave....and she did. Now she is one of those types of people who has to be the center of attention, and she wasn't...so she couldn't deal with it.  I wasn't asking the world, I was just asking for a friend during this time...and she just wasn't...no matter how hard I tried to get her to get involved

Months had gone by and we talked maybe 3 times...and now it has been about a year and a half and we still don't talk. I don't want to deal with the drama, things have changed  and this is where the fun begins.
She sends me an email saying that she is going to try to be a better friend, keep in contact and keep our circle of college friends close to her....NO ONE HAS HEARD FROM HER SINCE SHE MOVED OVER 2 MONTHS AGO! No big deal, but then I find out that she is pissed at me that I haven't made an effort....are you kidding me? It is just silly.  I sent an email back to her saying that I am puttimg myself first....I have a lot of crazy things going on and if she can't accept that, then I wish her well in her life.

So bloggers out there, what would you do??

So I went out tonight....and I drank...some....not a lot. I had a very stressful day and deserved a few drinks. I had a lot of fun with a co-worker. He is a great guy....a load of fun. He is getting married next week...though he would never admit it. It is just what I needed.


RESPECT.....that is just what I heard on the TV.....isnt that the truth....that make relationships go around


time to sleep
B